Let's Get Serious

Hey everyone. I'm not going to lie to you, I can't even express how happy I am that I have the whole weekend off. I've had a pretty shitty week and on top of that I've been experiencing some pretty intense anxiety pretty much all week. It is something that I've dealt with on and off since I was a teenager.  Physically I'm ok but I have an overwhelming feeling of anxiety that I can't seem to shake. When this happens I become very withdrawn.  I don't really go out much except to work and the gym. I tend to cut off from social media and my participation drops significantly. To be honest this blog is probably the only thing I've maintained somewhat normally this week.

Fortunately I've dealt with it enough and have enough clarity in the moment to know that I will be ok and that I just need to deal with it and move on. I guess at this point I just acknowledge that I need to feel whatever it is that I'm feeling and then let it go. So if I've seemed a bit off this week, this is why. I'll be fine, I'm starting to feel a little better but I guess it just takes time.

So, on that note I'm sorry to be such a Debbie Downer and now I am going to try and lift the mood a little bit and share something that I put together with a little inspiration from Sage.

A few days ago Sage posted about a bad day emergency kit. I think she can read my mind because the timing of her posts is always impeccable. Anyway, now is definitely a time where I can use a bad day emergency kit and I figured I should set one up since I have the whole weekend off and some time to decompress and just deal with it. So I wanted to share it with you.

This is an overall shot of everything I've included. I figured I'd break it down for you.

This is my "baking section." Baking makes me happy and calm so I figured what better way to get out of my own head than make ninja cookies. I included my iPod because more often than not I have a one woman dance party around the kitchen when I'm baking. I usually listen to music on my phone but I figure that the phone needs to be out of sight when I'm trying to enjoy the moment.

Here I have a yoga DVD and a book on Travel Photography. Yoga is obviously an amazing way to relax, meditate and just to breathe and connect to your own body. I bought the book years ago and read it once and it has been on the shelf since. Travel photography has always been an interest of mine so I thought it may be fun to read it again and get the dream fired up again. 

I've also included a huge ass fun mug and some of my favorite Spearmint tea. It is one of the few non organic things I'll consume because it had been my favorite for years and I started drinking it way before I started eating and drinking organic. I figure a cup once in a while won't kill me :) I also included fun, bright nail polish because sometimes it is just fun to be girly.

After I gathered everything I packed it all up in this re-useable small sized bag. Now it is ready to go when I feel overwhelmed or like I'm having a really bad day. Thank you so much for the inspiration Sage! Oh and obviously I have those amazing Banana Bites in the freezer for a decadent treat.

In fact, I just tried one and it was amazing. Definitely make these, they are so fast and easy and a perfect refreshing treat.

So as I said in the beginning of this post, I tend to withdraw and stay home when I am experiencing severe anxiety (usually it is pretty manageable, but once in a while it is a little more intense and lasts a bit longer) but today I basically decided that enough was enough and it was too beautiful of a day to waste inside. I went to the gym in the morning and then spent the day outside walking around some outlets out in Eastern Long Island. I'm glad I went out because the fresh air was nice and it took my mind off of things for a bit. Plus I got to hang out with Delilah.

Here she is rocking my tie dye sunglasses. She looks pretty awesome in them I'd say!

Thanks for reading this beast of a post, I hope you are all doing well and enjoying your weekend! Hopefully I'll be able to relax for a bit tomorrow and hopefully I'll have some food to show you.